Unfinished Love Letters Pt. 2

Today, I thought about you, its been a while.

The thought I had was, me realizing that I hadn't thought about you in a while. 

It brought me peace. 

Realizing that today? 

I feel completely indifferent about you.

They say that the opposite of love is hate, I beg to differ. If I were to hate you, that would mean that you still hold some type of emotional hold on me....& that is not true.

I'm over you.

After clearing out the fog my love for you left behind, I see you for who you really are. 

You're a coward.

I see a man, who is so afraid to lose love, that he would rather not love at all. A man who sees affection as a sign of weakness. A man who sees love right infront of him but is afraid to reach out to it.

Theres nothing manly about that. 

You're weakness cripples you.

I wanted to love you.

 I begged you to let me love you.

 You would have been safe in my love,she wouldn't have hurt you.

 You should have trusted in my ability to heal you.

But you won't. Instead, you would rather live in fear. 

How could I have allowed myself to fall in love with a coward?

How could I allow myself to be treated like anything less than what I deserve?

Why did I allow myself to give so much to someone who refuses to give back?